times are changing, for me at lest

There are so many things that I want too do in life, but it is so hard to figure it out. A person would think that by the age of 31. I would have figured this out. But I am just as lost as ever. I feel my biggest problem is that I am so worried about everyone else that I for get about me. Now that I have been divorced to a little over 2 years, I a facing this issue head on. This is what I have figured out so far,
The first think that I would like to point out is that I was taught a lot of good things that from my parents that I would not give back. The biggest thing being is that you need to work hard for the penny you earn. But in the same sense, they also taught me to settle. You can’t get any better then were you are right known. As a kid of the 90’s, I was always told that I could be anything I wanted too be. Well, what the hell happened?
What happened, remember that I do love my crazy parents, because they settled, I think they didn’t know how to get me to achieve more. For me having a learning disability, (being tested as we speak) I found it hard to motivate my self.
I can’t blame my parents totally. As an adult, I need to start taking control of my life. I think, when I was in my 20’s, I was stuck between adolescences and adulthood. I didn’t feel prepared for the world. I did learn some valuable lessons along the way. Things such as, take info with a grain of salt, relax, and If I want something, I need to use my words. The sad thing is, it took me, 10 years to figure it out.
As part of this new journey that I am on, I am making a pledge to myself that I am going to live life to the fullest, and work my but off to get there. I plan on using this blog as a way of not only letting everyone know about my progress, but to also let everyone know about my projects. I feel that I need to get out there and experience life. In high school, I kept busy so I didn’t have to think about how depressed I was that life wasn’t going the way I want it to. I think know, I need to keep busy, so buy doing things that I want to do. Things that will either be fun, and or give me some kind of fulfillment.
Know I know this is going to be difficult for me, but I think that in the long run, I will be a better person. And I know that my friends will always be there for me. I plan on having a long and successful life ahead of me.