as the goddess grows

For the past year, my roommate and I would sit down once a week and discuss our goals. We would start out with our big goals. We would then break it down into smaller more manageable goals. We would start out by saying to ourselves, “what can I do this week that will get me to my goal.” This last year has been eventful to say the least. I was able to accomplish one goal, getting a new job, and go back to school so I can get a degree in horticulture and eventual get a job in the field. It was hard not to get frustrated, especially when things weren’t moving fast enough. I hope my ongoing adventure will encourage others to continue to go after their dreams. What got us going was that we both had some pretty big goals to accomplish. Even though we have been able to get threw a few, we haven’t gotten them all done. I feel that when one goal is meet, we should start a new one. Any goal always leads to more. What got me going with my goals was that I had found a passion for gardening. My roomy and I decided to put in a garden. I guess you can say that this in a sense, hit me if the face. I had, and still have anxiety. A lot of times, I would hop into my car and drive. This always clears my head. Well after the second day of gardening, I hoped into my car to think. The funny thing was, I really had nothing to think about. That was frustrating me a little. That is when it hit me. My anxiety was gone. I was trying to figure out how to keep this going. And this is how I figured out that I should go back to school. In my opinion, the best way for a person to learn, is to do what they enjoy. Well I started out slowly. This fall semester I will be taking 3 classes. In the spring, I hope to go full time and be at the University Of Minnesota. Which leads me to my next goal. A few years ago, I was working overnights at a local nationwide retailer. I had been there for almost 8 years. This job was really getting to me. I felt like I needed something new and to grow. So I had gotten a job doing customer service over. Well It only lasted 4 weeks when I decided it wasn’t for me. So, needless to say I was out of a job for a few months. I was able to find a job, but it was only part time. Well, something is better than nothing. My next goal was to get a new job. One of my goals to get this done was to start volunteering. This has always been a big part of my life. And it always looks good on a résumé. So I started working at the Dodge Nature Center in West St. Paul. After a year and a half of this, I was able to get a job at the University of Minnesota. This is a big step for me. Not only am I working full time, I am also getting paid better, starting out at a job, then I ever have at any other job that I have had, and the university will, as of right know, pay for all of my tuition. How cool is that. These two things have given me so much more confidence. Sometimes it does get hard. I am still trying to figure out how to keep it going all the time. But one thing is for sure, no matter how hard something may seem, it is manageable.